Earlier this year I met with a psychic. She said a lot of stuff which I brushed off (apparently I’m going to meet the man of my dreams and move across the world to be with him… yeah, right! I can hardly go a week without seeing my family let alone up & move to a different country!). But there was one piece of advice that stuck with me.
She said I’m going to have some very big decisions to make in the coming months and that I need to push myself out of my comfort zone and ‘jump’.
I’m not going to pretend that I haven’t been told this before. About 6 years ago I was told by another fortune teller that I sit on the fence too much; that the world was passing me by and I needed to be braver & take risks or nothing was going to change. At the time I was really angry about this. I walked out thinking ‘how dare she, she doesn’t know what she’s talking about, it’s all rubbish’. Only now do I see that she really was right.
I see things very black and white and I don’t take many risks. I like to feel safe. My self confidence has always been low (and seems to be sinking by the year) and this contributes to me thinking I’ll fail so…I don’t even try. I used to think good things happen to people because of luck and I used to sit and wait for things to come to me & then always felt frustrated when they didn’t, but this needs to change. It’s not luck, it’s hard work and bravery and nothing is going to happen for me unless I step out of my comfort zone.
After meeting the psychic I started re-thinking all areas of my life. I started pulling things apart to evaluate which area of my life I needed to ‘jump’ in. This left me with even more crippling self doubt about what things I was doing wrong and what needed fixing. Even things I felt confident & comfortable in I began doubting, but I think this was a necessary. I think this made me realise that I’m currently just surviving, rather than actually living my best life.
Fast forward 3 months and I now have a big life decision coming up. I was going to take the easy option which wouldn’t have improved my life or made me any happier, but it was easy and most importantly, it was safe. But fuck it. Instead I’m going to say yes, I’m going to jump, and I’m excited to see where it takes me.
P.S Stay tuned to hear about my big life changes soon <3
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