It’s so weird to think that almost 9 years ago, at the age of 21 I set up a blog where I started posting about makeup as a hobby and that now, at age 30, I’m still here and still get so much pleasure and joy out of this space of mine that I have created on the internet. Not only that, but it’s my full time job and has blessed me with the most incredible life & so many priceless opportunities. Twenty-one year old me had absolutely no confidence in herself and honestly didn’t think she’d amount to much at all, but really dreamed that there was more to life for her one day.
9 years on, I still have very little confidence in myself or my abilities (this still needs a lot of work mentally), but I feel so much stronger, wiser, braver and much more fulfilled.
I feel like I’ve entered a real space of re-evaluation over the past couple of weeks, but maybe that’s natural after hitting the grand age of 30? I’ve been thinking a lot about things I still want to accomplish in life (updated bucket list coming soon) and I’m feeling even more inspired to make these things happen. I’ve written a list of 5 year goals and even though some of them look stupid on paper, I’m determined to try my best at them.
On top of that, I’m feeling so inspired to really grow & nurture my mental wellbeing. I don’t want to get caught up in the little day to day things and instead take steps back and just enjoy life. I want to maintain a really happy home life, be selfish and do more things for me, become more spiritual through yoga & crystals and continue to see the beauty in everything. What I really want to do is just enjoy and cherish this time in my life because I know it won’t last forever, I want to make the most of it.
On turning 30 & relationships: If you had told me 3 years ago that at the age of 30 I’d be single, I’d have been devastated. 3 years ago I truly thought I was on the path to marriage and babies – my wedding was planned and I’ve always known that I wanted to be a young parent so I could have as close a bond with my children as I do with my parents. But I honestly can’t express how happy I am with every aspect of my life right now and that children, marriage and a partner doesn’t even register on my list of priorities. I dread to think how lonely and sad my life would be now if I had taken the path I was on.
I might be 30 and without a boyfriend but I’m ten times stronger than I’ve ever been before, I know what I want from relationships and I absolutely won’t take rubbish from anyone.
Throughout my life I’d always looked at 30 year olds as ‘proper adults’ who really have their shit together. I’m learning more with every year that despite your age, most of us still feel 18/21 at heart. Our bodies & faces change but we have that young spirit inside. I definitely don’t have my shit together, but I’m really happy and I think that’s all that matters.