The other day whilst preparing to film for a YouTube video, I did something really, really stupid… It was a horrific, hilarious sight and all the while I was thinking, wow, this is the stupidest thing I’ve ever done in my entire adult life. After dealing with the incident I realised I had missed a call from my mother and after explaining to her why I had missed the call, she spent the next 5 minutes hysterically laughing at what I had done.
One of my first thoughts after the incident above was that this would make a great storytime video. My mum (and subsequently my dad and sister) also agreed that it was needed to be told as it was so funny… but I felt hesitant. If you meet me in person you’ll quickly learn that I’m incredibly open and have no barrier with sharing sometimes personal information and I also think I’m super honest online with little embarrassment felt, but…
There have been many times where I hesitated posting things because I’m worried that I’m over sharing. It’s tricky because the line for me is so blurred – this is my job and it’s also my life. I feel like you guys are friends and so I naturally want to share my life with you but should I treat it more professionally and not share all aspects of my life? Should I leave some mystery?
My question is, how much is too much to share online?
There are of course things I don’t share – the real reasons my past relationship didn’t work, my housemate & things we do together, what I get up to when I’m not in front of a camera. This is mainly because these things involve other people and that’s where I’m willing to hold back because I’d obviously never want to upset anyone or share without their consent.
It’s only when meeting new people that I’m reminded of how bizarre my life is because of my job. Some of my friends really support my job and enjoy being part of my content but other’s completely shy away from it which in turn makes me really embarrassed.
I’ve always maintained throughout this whole instagram culture where everyone and their lives look so perfect, that I want my mission to be to bring it back down to REALITY. I want to show the ups and downs of life, I want to be relatable. I want to feel like your big sister or best friend rather than someone you idolise and feel jealous of. In that way, I feel like there should be no limit on how open I am. The more open, the better as more of you will be able to relate.
That’s why I was so honest about my acne and filmed my bare skin every day for nine months to document my struggles. That’s why I was very open about how I had to cancel my wedding as my relationship failed. That’s why you guys are kept in the loop about my dating stories & know that one of my new years resolutions is to have more sex!
But could it be seen as unprofessional to be so open… to literally lay out all of my flaws and thoughts? I would love to hear what you guys think about this? Would you feel comfortable showing your weaknesses, insecurities and embarrassing moments on the internet for all to see? Does seeing someone else do this make you cringe or make you feel like you’re less alone?
I think I still need to put some thought into how much is too much to share, but I’d be really interested to know what you think whilst I try and work it out.
I should probably say that the stupidest thing I mentioned above involves pubes… now is that too much information?